its 0030 hrs and its pouring cats and dogs. and here i am busy in thoughts.
hope. a reason to... a reason for everything.
hope that this light, found recently, stays with me, forever!
Thursday, October 7, 2010
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
becoming...
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thoughts are cluttered yet again.
lets say, there is a thought. this thought can become a reality. or it might not. so, the probability of that thought becoming a reality is 50%. mind is like railway locomotive (diesel). i need to be precise here. :) diesel locos are put to halt only when they are decommissioned or when they are under repairs. else, the loco is always idling, if not pulling a train of coaches or wagons behind. like wise, brain also never comes to rest and thoughts are always in process.
now, with probability of 50% as starting point, thoughts build and it might take a certain higher value. when reality arrives, this thought which is at a higher value, has to take value of 0 or 1. reaching 1 is not difficult as it has already reached it or some where near it. reaching 0 is a problem as it has to come all the way down and if its not possible, then system may collapse.
so, to prevent the system from collapsing, its better not to fuzzify things, even though life is fuzzy - things which are not white are not black. there are shades of gray. treat the thought with probability of 0 until its 1. certain thoughts can never be in parts. its either there or no there.
but then and but still,
उम्मीद पे दुनिया खायं है!
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
crack !
crack : 1. gone to nuts, a nut case 2. may be used as border to differeniate imaginary rights, used as boundaries 3. broken, shattered
whenever i travel by train, i get my seat reserved. if the journey is from mysore, i always find somebody or the other all ready sitting on the seat. then the usual fight for seat as i exercise my right as i have a valid reserved ticket. what a wonderful way to start a journey! this time, there was a very aged lady and i dint want to argue. so, managed my self and finished 'the week' i had purchased. rest was very uneventful. not that this was eventful and worth few words.
reached bangalore and my mind was in chaos.took the subway and came up to wonder station has changed - where is the exit ? then realised that i was on platform 2-3 and exit was beyond that. reached outside and there was a downpur. again, i thought, getting drenched in rain is a nice idea as it can help me wash chaos and ease things a little. so, walked towards majestic bustand, in the heavy rain. its a nice feeling to walk in the rain, in always crowded majestic (now not a person to be seen). reached bus stand, all drenched, to find out it had stopped raining. with everybody staring at me with wierd expression on their faces, i could read their faces. it said - what a crack! nut case ! they all had taken some shelter and i was the only one dripping wet.
may be i made a laughing stock of myself, but who cares, as long as i enjoyed the uncrowed majestic and beautiful rain!
the recent judgement on ayodhya, decided where god should stay. this is heights! who are we to say that when whole of this universe is his creation ? and it took 60 years to pass this lousy judgement, without realising that god is GOD.
was wondering what are the things, which when, once broken, shattered, cannot be repaired ?
milk to curds. curd is something good but its never milk again.
a cracked mirror. we might buy a new one, but the old one is gone.
any more suggestions ?
reached bangalore and my mind was in chaos.took the subway and came up to wonder station has changed - where is the exit ? then realised that i was on platform 2-3 and exit was beyond that. reached outside and there was a downpur. again, i thought, getting drenched in rain is a nice idea as it can help me wash chaos and ease things a little. so, walked towards majestic bustand, in the heavy rain. its a nice feeling to walk in the rain, in always crowded majestic (now not a person to be seen). reached bus stand, all drenched, to find out it had stopped raining. with everybody staring at me with wierd expression on their faces, i could read their faces. it said - what a crack! nut case ! they all had taken some shelter and i was the only one dripping wet.
may be i made a laughing stock of myself, but who cares, as long as i enjoyed the uncrowed majestic and beautiful rain!
the recent judgement on ayodhya, decided where god should stay. this is heights! who are we to say that when whole of this universe is his creation ? and it took 60 years to pass this lousy judgement, without realising that god is GOD.
was wondering what are the things, which when, once broken, shattered, cannot be repaired ?
milk to curds. curd is something good but its never milk again.
a cracked mirror. we might buy a new one, but the old one is gone.
any more suggestions ?
Sunday, October 3, 2010
itchy feet - 2
mind has reached a stage, where its cluttered. seems like its in a cetrifuge, at very high rpm.
now that, what makes a person fall in love with the city the person lives in, is known, mind has lost clarity.
certain things may seem beautiful when masked.
but, for mind, for the process of thought, things have to be clear. to be precise, hopelessly clear.
बस. यह शहर रास नहीं आया!
better strategies!
Thursday, September 30, 2010
itchy feet
being born there ? people around them ? the job they do ? the independence and the interdependence the city offers ? the food, water ? the culture ? the beauty of the city ?
beats me...
spent initial 3 years of my life in mysore. the next 4 in mandya. next 15 years again in mysore. next couple of years in the city of mumbai. and now in bangalore for 9 months. yet, am unable to decide which is my favorite city of these and why.
or may be i now know...
Everything in the name of GOD
its definitely not that am atheist. but, pleasing GOD at what cost ???
spiritual texts, which i follow, do say that there is a definite way to perform puja of the Vignavinashaka, our friendly neighbourhood Ganesha. but, these spiritual texts never say anything about the procedure of doing visarjana of the same. But, presently, there is a big idol of Ganesha in every street. on the third day, or on the 11 th day or the 21st day, our friendly neighourhood ganesha departs, with lots of baja-bajantri, ruckus, crackers bursting, creating lots of traffic jams, ambulances getting stuck in these jams. Ganesha blesses the one who does puja. but, without putting others in inconvenience, the ganapati pooja is never complete these days.
today, on the 30th of september, 2010, the much awaited Ayodhya Verdict is to be delivered by the Allahabad highcourt. in view of the violent reactions to the ruling, security has been beefed up. offices were closed down at 1330 hrs. the transportation facilities also suffered, because of which, there were many who were stranded outside the -so called - Tech Parks.
while i was waiting for my friends, i had a chance to look around and think. there were people with cars who were dropping their colleagues. even the 2 buses which were running, were too crowded to get in. worse than mumbai local. people in formals, i-card on their neck, like a noose were found in luggage vans, travelling to their destinations. when people were asking for lift, a car simply sped away. can ppl be so insensitive ?
anyways, all these ppl stranded were stranded because of whose fault ?
Dear God,
Do walk away Do walk away
the world is burning. my heart is yearning
Do walk away.
spiritual texts, which i follow, do say that there is a definite way to perform puja of the Vignavinashaka, our friendly neighbourhood Ganesha. but, these spiritual texts never say anything about the procedure of doing visarjana of the same. But, presently, there is a big idol of Ganesha in every street. on the third day, or on the 11 th day or the 21st day, our friendly neighourhood ganesha departs, with lots of baja-bajantri, ruckus, crackers bursting, creating lots of traffic jams, ambulances getting stuck in these jams. Ganesha blesses the one who does puja. but, without putting others in inconvenience, the ganapati pooja is never complete these days.
today, on the 30th of september, 2010, the much awaited Ayodhya Verdict is to be delivered by the Allahabad highcourt. in view of the violent reactions to the ruling, security has been beefed up. offices were closed down at 1330 hrs. the transportation facilities also suffered, because of which, there were many who were stranded outside the -so called - Tech Parks.
while i was waiting for my friends, i had a chance to look around and think. there were people with cars who were dropping their colleagues. even the 2 buses which were running, were too crowded to get in. worse than mumbai local. people in formals, i-card on their neck, like a noose were found in luggage vans, travelling to their destinations. when people were asking for lift, a car simply sped away. can ppl be so insensitive ?
anyways, all these ppl stranded were stranded because of whose fault ?
Dear God,
Do walk away Do walk away
the world is burning. my heart is yearning
Do walk away.
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
shunya
think that should explain it all!
its such a beautiful concept.the whole universe has it. its such a place where light cannot be seen. sound cannot be heard. there is nothing to be felt. right from inter galactic space to inter orbital space, there is void. there is shunya.
but then, its present in thoughts too. we feel emptiness, void to be filled.
so, its definitely not just - not having matter. its something more.
shunya
emptiness
void
in thoughts... there is a need to be filled...
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